Day 001 - Beginnings

So, in honor of Kingdom Hearts: 358/2 Days' release, I've decided that, like Roxas, I would keep a diary of the next days, 358 to be precise, of my life. Through this diary the innermost thoughts of mine will be elaborated upon, as well as discussions about the world, society, etc. Now it's time to begin!

Today proved to be quite the out of the ordinary day. I was at first nervous in the morning, due to the fact I had only rushed Erin's slides into Bolan, her and my PowerPoint for Mr.Tillotson today. It was quite the stressful deal running down to the library to check out the slide show. It was satisfactory, renewing my confidence and allowing me and Bolan (Erin was "sick") to present. And yes, I actually made jokes (Those are my horsies) and somehow we managed getting a really decent grade (Procrastinators ftw!).

However, after this presentation, my thoughts traversed back into the Sanctuary of my mind. Usually, I debate with other objecting forces in my head (Conscious, Religious, Anti-Social, Immature, etc.) who all seem to have varying opinions on the situations I face in life. Sometimes, I begin to wonder if I've cracked a long time ago, or maybe that I just distance myself from society so much that all I have left to show of my humanity is a bunch of radical thoughts that constantly conflict with each other. I probably have gone mad, just not mad enough to require to be sent to an asylum. But I have noticed that one "voice" always appeals to what I have in mind the most; the one who serves as my personal guideline for how to live. I acknowledge that persona as "Truth", who is the actual backbone of my personality. I try to follow these methods, but for some reason or another, I just can't seem to be able to. Meh, it's probably stress induced.

Speaking of stress, what's really got me screaming in my head is the two of them; Danielle and the Mysterious Girl from the Bus. I honestly like them both, which is completely new to me as I've never liked two girls at the same time, at least, I was over one by the time the next appeared, and I highly doubt I'm over Danielle. Anyway, my comments on both:

Danielle:
Has been friends with me since the 8th Grade. She's got soft brown eyes, and this giant ass hair puff which, when taken apart, reveals her amazing hair. We were enemies during those times, eventually growing to hate each other by the start of ninth grade. However, through the revival of myself, I apologized, the hatred turning into mutual friendship. Eventually, by March I believe, I had developed a crush on Danielle, which had blossomed greatly over the summer, but not to the point of where I consider it to be love. Anyhow, Danielle is unlike any other girl I've met, as she doesn't believe in that preppy crap that's been plaguing society lately. She also isn't a stoner/emo/gothic person, which makes her completely unique. She also doesn't wear makeup, which I think natural looks > makeup and that facial crap that those "fashion" people are so into. Danielle is mostly interested in being herself, and doesn't care about what people have to say or think about it. Though, I do dislike her taste in screamo-rock music and mayonaise, but that's perfectly tolerable. We talk a lot during the school day, more increasingly in this year than others. The last time we've ever talked about our "relationship" was in May, and the matter hasn't been touched since. While I would like to talk to her, I don't want to burden her with my issues and stuff. Even if I may be suffering on the inside, her smile replaces the pain with joy.

The Mysterious Girl:
I know absolutely nothing about her. I don't know what grade she's in, her age, if she's an exchange student or not. I don't even know her name. All I know is that she listens to music a lot, and has a locker in the Creative Writing hallway (I saw her at her locker earlier today). I have no idea how I've come to be infatuated with her, but all I know is that I am, and am extremely curious on getting to know more about her. I'm sure she doesn't feel at all the same way, we're complete strangers to each other, but there's this one instance in which she literally ran over to the seat next to mine, even the there were only FOUR people on the entire bus ride. She has fierce blue eyes, and dark brown hair. We've held eye contact about five times, all of which I had to turn my head away from her amazing looks. She also constantly listens to her iPod on the bus, even if there's something hilarious going on.


Overall, I'm caught between these two, and have no idea on who I should turn my attention towards; the girl I've known for years, or the girl I don't know at all. It'll all become clear eventually...